37 of 100 ... "If Nothing Changed ...

... there'd be no butterflies."


I’m not sure if this “opportunity” has come to me as a result of this challenge I have given myself or if the meeting of the two are by chance.  I won’t get into details here, but I will say that it is like I’m being hit over the head with some pretty big “ah-ha” moments that are cutting me to the core.  Moments that are presenting life-lessons and self-awareness discoveries and realizations that were never this clear before.  Clarity is one thing, realization is another … and then, if they are true, comes action as a result.  Sometimes I wonder if there’s enough life left for me to make good on all these; but even if there’s not, at least I can take some steps in that direction and begin the journey. 

Gratitude Moments for Wednesday

1.  I’m grateful that my friend RA made it home safe.  I am in awe that she took on a field trip with her daughter when she is not well and suffers from so much pain, and knowing that this would affect her, she still went. Today, she made it home … yes, in pain, but home: safe, warm and sound!  Hats off to her!

2.  I’m grateful that I took the time to talk with my friend TK today and really listen to her struggles.  I get it.  May I be able to respond as she needs.

3.  I’m grateful that I finally got the tires out of my car!  I got my summers on last weekend and, because they’re so heavy, I didn’t deal with them until today.  So, even though it was a bit of a challenge, they are no longer in my car! Which means now I can give it a summer clean!!

4.  I’m grateful for the positive call from the thoracic surgeon today.  It seems that all is being resolved, except for why my tonsils and lymph nodes are enlarged.  At least, it’s not because of cancer!

5.  I’m grateful for the beautiful day we had today!  I got out for a very short walk around the building (not enough to count as activity but enough to feel the warm sun on my face) and, like every other, I did not want to go in.  Reminded me of those days before summer holidays. 

6.  I’m grateful that I have the chance to become more self-aware and to change accordingly.  Sometimes the lessons that get me to this point are tough, but I’m grateful that I do have them and that I get to change, hopefully becoming a better person, as a result.

Steps out of the Rut:

Cups of water: 4
Day’s Calories: unknown
Food groups: 4 out of 5
Activity: no
Clean sink: yes!
Meds: yes!
Sleeping: 7.5h
Sofa/Sleep ratio: about 2hr watching TV
Deep clean: none
Reading: 20m