30 of 100 ... Pause, Relax, Focus

Today was a day when I felt like I had little time to work on my steps.  It wasn't a waste of a day, but I sure am looking forward to this weekend and getting myself back on track!  I'm not going to change my steps, but keep them as they are for a bit, and see if I can begin to master them, even if it takes the rest of the 100 days to do that.  I took a bit of time after work to step back and deal with a thing or two that I needed some focus.  I seem to have so much on my "Must do" list that I don't know where to begin.  Tonight, I picked one ... and started there.  I have to remember, this isn't a race ... it's a process to change. 


Moments of Gratitude
1  Today, I was grateful for taking a bit of money and purchasing a few items of clothing that fit, easy things to springboard from my winter clothing items to these.  And, when they fit, I can be confident and comfortable in them. Now, to find a pair of shoes that don't hurt my feet!
2.  Today, I'm grateful for the gift I bought myself as part of this challenge.  I purchased a Pandora bracelet, the Essence bracelet.  And, I decided to purchase the first charm for my first 25 days.  I bought the 'Faith' one - because I want to look at it and remind myself that I have faith in myself that I CAN do this and change my life.  "That, if it is to be, it's up to me."  And, remind myself that with my Faith, I don't ever have to struggle alone.  It's a purple amethyst charm, which reminds me of The Color Purple ... and that's a good thing to remember!
3.  Today, I'm grateful for completing today the task I began yesterday. 
4.  Today, I'm grateful for getting through the last 4 months, and maintaining a sense of humour, strength that things are far from over yet, anticipation for what is yet to come, and a growing determination to not let go or give up, regardless of what is around the corner. I sat and listed the medical visits and procedures and challenges from the last 4.5 months and my first thought was "so that's why"... 
5.  Today, I am grateful for the lady who helped me at the Pandora store.  I told her a bit about what I was doing, and somehow my challenge I'm going through came out.  My problem with time.  She didn't say anything directly that helped, but indirectly, what she said got me thinking along a different path.  I'm going to try something different this weekend and see if that can help me in the week(s) to come with this challenge. 


Steps out of my Rut:
Cups of water: 5
Day’s Calories: unknown
Food groups (out of 5): 4 of the 5 (no fruit)
Activity: no (unless you count walking in the mall? nah, I wouldn't)
Clean sink: yes!
Meds: yes!
Sleeping: 7h 40m, but I was up at least 4 times, and was not well, taking a while to fall asleep.
Sofa/Sleep ratio: only 1-2 hrs watching TV
Deep clean: none
Reading: 10 min at work; want to read a bit more before bed.




Remember, this isn't a race.