34 of 100 ... "Even if You Stumble ...

You are still moving forward."  I don't know if I'd say this weekend was stumbling, though it could be seen as such.  And stumbling is part of learning, right?  We cannot run until we walk, and often we stumble and fall on that road.  But even if this weekend I stumbled,  I am also certain that this weekend I was still moving forward.  Reading that quote gives me confidence, in a strange way.  I should not be afraid of stumbling ... stumbling is ok; turning back and giving up is not.  So, today, forward I still went.  Today was a good day ... not a strong day, but a good day.  And that's ok.


Moments of Gratitude
1.  Today, I'm grateful for completing a few tasks that were not complete when today started.
2.  Today, I'm grateful for the tooth problems I'm having - sometimes it takes something like this to nudge me to action in the necessary direction.  In this case, it also means searching for glasses as well as getting my teeth fixed. 
3.  Today, I'm grateful for the time I spent with Vicky this evening.  She didn't seem quite as depressed today and maybe between her and me, we can hold each other's hands as we attempt to find connection with other people.  A support network is crucial for mental health and growth and, each in our own way, we need others.
4.  Today, I'm grateful for the phone call from my friend JS.  For all that he and I have gone through since I moved to Alberta in 1990, to lose his friendship last year without any explanation and have it come back recently in the most spiritual of ways, I am grateful that he does check up on me and that we can still have 4 hour conversations.
5.  Today, I am grateful for my heritage of faith.  Conversations with my brother and with JS have made it clear to me that this is not something that is new, even though it is born anew every morning.  My faith comes not only from me, but from my ancestors passed through generations, a faith that is not perfect, but has depth and an understanding of it that comes from history.  In this heritage, I often find my strength, not of emotion that can change, but of conviction and certainty in that which has been tested by time and has flourished in me.  As I once heard, I am the Third Testament, God through me in this time. 


Steps out of my Rut
Cups of water: 6
Day’s Calories: unknown
Food groups: 5 out of 5
Activity: no
Clean sink: yes!
Meds: yes!
Sleeping: 6h 30m
Sofa/Sleep ratio: about 4 hr watching TV? evening only
Deep clean: none
Reading: none