25 of 100 ... 1/4 to my Destination!

Today marks 1/4 to the destination.  And, I do hope that this leads to new (good) habits and old (bad) habits drop away.  Like everything, nothing happens overnight.  Challenges are great, and costs are weighed.  But I know that, already, in small ways, I'm not who I was 25 days ago.


Gratitude Moments for Today

1.  Today, I am grateful for knowing what I need to do to get me out of this rut, grateful to know that with enough attempts and enough effort, complaining about what 'is' becomes a thing of the past, and who I once was, the best parts I keep and the others, I let drop to the wayside.  I've not arrived yet, but a few steps I have made, and for those steps and for the knowing, I am grateful.
2.  Today, I'm so grateful for a massage.  The stress and tightness becomes almost unbearable and I have to find a solution. Maybe there are things I can do to reduce future pain ... something to look into!  Also, it was nice to be touched again - nothing inappropriate, just something about acknowledging my presence in human touch.  I often go so long without it that I really notice it when it happens.
3.  Today, I'm grateful for finding out what I need to do to get myself on my financial feet.  I knew parts, but today I know the whole picture.
4.  Today, I'm grateful for the woman who spoke to me about financial matters ... I'm grateful that she really understood me.  She walked a strikingly similar path to mine and she's right - one day you open your eyes and realize you truly have walked through the valley of the shadow of death.  At least 'through' it enough that you can look back and see you are not where you once were.
5.  Today, I'm grateful for having the opportunity to 'talk' to an old friend that was once so important to me, to tentatively test the waters to see if the friendship is still there.  I'm not sure how to move forward, not sure how much of me I should dismiss in the process, not sure where that line is.  But, I'm grateful that I have the opportunity to take these steps, to attempt to mend, and go from there.  The discussion was without depth, but positive.  And right now, positive is good.


Steps out of my Rut
1. Cups of water: 6
2. Clean sink: not yet.
3.  Salad (no); fruit (no) - I got home at 8:30 and I don't want to eat past 7:00. 
4.  Activity: no (does the massage count?  muscles hurt!)
5.  Meals:  wrote down what I ate, and it varied a bit from what I planned.
6.  Meds:  YES!!


25% of this experiment is done.  I am going to purchase myself a gift that will become my reward for change.  I'll try to include a picture when I get it!