33 - Peace That Passes Understanding

I wish I had taken notes today - there was more than once I wanted to copy what was said and reflect on it later.  I watched one of Oprah Winfrey's Super Soul Sunday discussions with Marianne Williamson (see here), a discussion on Return to Love 20 years later. I never read the book, though I have it ... right here beside me, actually.  And perhaps I can see it again and note these points later ... but right now, there were two that I do remember. 

One thought was an "hmmm" moment on the discussion of God's Will - the Will of God.  One struggle I've often had was on the whole free will vs. fate - has God truly given us free choice? or is there an ultimate purpose for each of us?  If we are destined to something, this kind of flies in the face of my developing thoughts on universal salvation, and that bothers me.  However, Williamson said something that made me go "hmmm". (20.00 ish) .... For every person there is an individual curriculum (she suggests that our purpose here is for learning), the universe is invested in your enlightenment (14.30), which leads to a 'file' titled 'God's Will for You' created. If my heart's not open, then the ultimate file will not download into my heart.  His will for you is always there, waiting to come to you in its fullness, in one way or another, through one person or another, but it is there ... all we have to do is posture our heart to a state of love to receive it.  Maybe in there, somewhere, is the balance between free will vs fate?

The second thought was on my struggle with 'happiness' ... she says 'God wants you to be happy', and this sits off with me.  "Where ever we are, we are on that path right now," she said.  And, there is something in here that I like - the difference between the ego and the spirit; to draw towards one (the former) is pulling towards fear, which is toxic.  But the other, the Spirit is about love, about peace, about the heart being open to miracles (the shift from fear to love), then it's about possibility, about receiving, about being present in the All that Is. "Happiness", to her, seems to be living in this state of love - not about our circumstances but about the state of our heart.  And, that I like.

I need to open myself to what God wants for me for it is better to be in the Will of God than out of it.  Who do I need to forgive? Who do I need to bless?

Gratitude Moments for Today
1/ Today, I'm grateful for getting together with MJ for a Super Soul Sunday, and to pray with her.
2/ Today, I'm grateful for another week ahead of me, where I can seek movement to where God wants me to go, and to take action on that.
3/ Today, I'm grateful for the beautiful weather! Crisp, but sunny.
4/ Today, I'm grateful for getting through last week on my budget! with $16 left over!!
5/ Today, I'm grateful for being conscious of what I do and sensitive to the voice inside - I need to sleep in my bed for the night, and tonight I will try a few things to change my sleepless nights around. I hope I can address this and change what needs to be changed so I can face into the day and week with energy and enthusiasm and excitement.