27 - Good News / Bad News

I heard something on Dr. Phil today that rather resonated with me. The visual here is a reminder of that, even though the concept is a bit different.  And, this is nothing new to me, and yet, for some reason, it hit me as a bit of a slap up-side the head.  Dr. Phil said to his guest today, "The bad news is that this is your responsibility; the good news is that this is your responsibility."  And that's what this boils down to, right?  The bad news - I gotta take care of this myself.  I need to take responsibility for it, no one can bail me out, no one can rescue me.  The good news?  At one point in my life, I will look back on this and see the goodness in it. I know it's times like this that can totally change a life; if I let go of that which is holding me back (be that in my mind or something real), then the world should be my oyster.  Oh, how to do that is the question?

Gratitude Moments for Today
1/ Today, I'm grateful that there are still things I can be grateful for!
2/ Today, I'm grateful for getting in to get my nails done.  Two things that are important to me ... for appearance reasons - nails and hair.  Today and tomorrow.
3/ Today, I'm grateful for sleeping in the morning and remembering to take my meds yesterday, even if it was 1:00 AM!
4/ Today, I'm grateful for the note I got today from a friend at my old job.  I'm glad he had encouraging things to say to me! It was nice to hear from him.
5/ Today, I'm grateful that I still have hope, that there is still time so it really is in my hands.  And it really is up to me.  If it is to be, it's up to me.

Oddly, this has nothing to do with egotism ... sometimes I wish I had more confidence in myself because maybe this would be resolved quicker.  I'm not selfish - but in a way I have to be.  No one is going to rescue me so I have to do it for myself.  I have to value myself enough that I do push myself forward and do what I need to do to bring about what I need.  Because if not, it's not long before I'll be homeless.  And no one can change that but me. So, if that's not enough to be a little "selfish" ... or, what would you call it? ... then what is?