26 - Note, Assess, Change?

Feeling like a failure today ... or at least that I'm not where I want to be.  I don't understand ... I think the reality of my situation is starting to sink in and I'm not sure about a lot of things.  I don't want to focus on it and yet ... no..  They say what you focus on becomes your reality.  Even if i have moved forward and moved back, think of it like re-traveling over familiar ground so I should be able to do it faster to get back where I once was.  Right?

Gratitude Moments for Today
1/ Today, I'm grateful for getting the resume in.
2/ Today, I'm grateful for realizing a position I was going to go for was not in Alberta ... before I sent a submission!
3/ Today, I'm grateful for getting protein powder. No reason now!
4// Today, I'm grateful for getting my last pair of glasses.  I might not have done the best with the styles, but they'll be good enough for now.  And, two of them are nice.
5/ Today, I'm grateful for money in the bank for this month. Spend less, have more.

Take note ... what has happened?  What can I observe?  What can I assess? And ... what's the first step to change? Just one step? What would it be?