5 - Preparations

Today was a day of preparation.  I realize that in this, there is time for making sure things are things are orderly.  Yes, if you looked around me right now, there wouldn't be much 'order', but there are things that require action now.  Things like a dentist visit, like making sure I have prescriptions maxed out (especially when one costs $100/month without insurance!), like making sure my computer is safe.  There are still more things to do, but now, I am choosing to shift to the employment hunt focus for a few days. I know all this is preparing me for beginning that new leg of life ... the old road is behind me. I am at the fork right now.

Gratitude Moments for Today
1/ Today I am grateful for our medical system here - the doctor's visit didn't cost me and right now, I can still pay a fraction for the medical needs I have.
2/ Today I am grateful for the strength to return the items I have over the last few days so that the computer security didn't cost me anything.  At times like this 'need' beats out 'a treat' any day!
3/ Today I'm grateful for being able to get together with AS this weekend!  She's a new friend from AMEC and is quite different than me.  And right now, to have different people but supportive people in my life is a good thing!
4/ Today I'm grateful for spending a bit of text-time with my brother.  He reminded me of things I need to keep in mind.  We were talking about his wife's psychopathology that is emerging now and he wrote:  "The fact that both our parents are gone puts us in a unique position, plus the strength of our family with religious values.  You and I are unique and special."  In a way, he and I both have a freedom now, and with a common foundation coupled with that freedom, we are not part of the mess that is prevalent and growing in our society.  I am so grateful for my brother and for the strengths in my corner! 
5/ Today I'm grateful that I have no struggle with death.  I do not fear it at all.  (I'm just not ready for it yet!)