90 of 100 ... Beginning of the last Stretch

I still have 10 days to go and already I'm starting to think about the next 100! What changes can I make, what can I do different to bring more success, thinking over the last 90 days - what worked, what didn't ... and what was it that I set out to do.  Maybe, in a way, everything worked, just not in the way I wanted/expected it to?  A friend wrote today on her FB on expressing gratitude to God for the blessings we deserve as His children.  Something in me stopped when I read that ... not that I disagree with God's blessings (see last 89 days for proof of them) ... I guess I also believe that though they come, they might not come in the package and appearance that we want them to come.  If this experiment has taught me anything thus far is that gifts are given, but we need to be aware and receptive and open to welcome them, regardless of the form they are given.  What might look like a curse on the outside actually might have a heart of a blessing.  This isn't about looking for the sliver lining but being still and open for gifts to be revealed.


Moments of Gratitude Today


I sit in stillness, reflecting over the day.  Today, I'm grateful for ...


1/ being reminded that I'm not on this journey alone.  More than once, there was an instant today when it was clear to me that I am not alone.  If I think long enough on this one, I will cry.  Thank you!
2/ getting to spend some time with my cousin and my aunt (my father's sister).  As different as I am from them, their simple kindness and love is something I am grateful for now. 
3/ my little basement apartment.  Right now it resembles something out of the early stages of Hoarders, but that isn't permanent unless I let it be.  A task for the coming week! I'm grateful in this heat, I don't worry about the heat affecting me - in fact, I am still using my feather blanket down here!
4/ having the coming week off.  I tried to be a bit more active today and know that I would not be able to spend a day at work, with all the running around that is required of me. 
5/ knowing and being shown that nothing stays the same.  The only constant in life is change ... and because of that, what is my reality today will not be my reality as time goes on.  The key is to do what I can, that is within my power and control to influence life in the direction that I desire it to go ... and even then, out of the blue, things can spin me into a new reality.  Where I was 90 days ago is not where I am now.  And, that's ok.  The only full control I have is how am I going to face into that change when it happens. 


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