Resolutions - the making of resolutions date back many moons. As far as the Babylonians, apparently! Dictionary definition? to resolve to do something, a course of action determined or decided upon. Common New Year's Resolutions for us include things like losing weight or quitting smoking ... for the Babylonians, it was returning farm equipment! Oh, how far things have come since then! Theirs seemed to be about community relationships and growth; ours seems to be about self improvement and betterment as compared to others.
Over the years I have made resolutions; but like most people, by the time December rolls around, they are all but forgotten. In the last few years, I have altered my thinking a bit and decided to give my year 'themes' to focus on. One year was " The Year of Cleaning Up My Shit". I was doing quite well on it until February hit - and my computer crashed. Why is this important? Because one of the areas I cleaned was all the random documents, all my computer files, etc. ... and I had just gotten it all cleaned up ... and I lost it all. After that, it was like my mind went into 'survival mode', and not much else was accomplished. Another year, it was "The Year of Finding my True Path" ... and something happened to derail that one as well. It seems I always start with good intentions, and the life happens and my focus goes out the window. Therefore, this year, I am calling my "Year of Focus". Everything needs to be with that as the lens.
I had wanted to start another 100 Day Challenge today. I'm not going to beat around the bush nor explain but I am not going to start today. In fact, I might not start one again ... but I am going to do something different ... the same but different. As the "foundation" gets laid, I will share. What I need from here is a place to come to be accountable, a place to report, a place to reflect. Change is never easy. Perhaps there are people who are able to set their mind, flip the switch and make the change like making instant coffee, but I don't think that's how it is for most. Especially if it's about changing a life.
Now, I will say that I might write things that don't make sense to you, and that's ok. It's not about making you understand, it's about being honest with myself, being consistent and having a place to go back to see patterns, to see events, to dig below the surface so that the change is complete, to remain focused.
For today, I want to return to the Gratitude Journal. That is something that is good to practice anytime, anywhere, and I found that when I stopped here, I thought it but never wrote it down. Change in habit needs to be for always, not just for the time of the experiment, so if I didn't write it here, I should have written it somewhere. This will all gain shape as I put the effort in and establish that.
Today's Gratitude Moments:
Today, I am grateful for
- being invited to CP's for supper. I do so enjoy talking with her!
- the roof over my head and the job I do; sometimes I don't feel like I have much, but at least I have these two things! and from there, other things can come.
- the freedom I have to create the life I desire.
- the last three days I have off before returning to work! I plan to make every one of them count!
- the nutrition ideas CP shared with me (and the marvelous soups she gave me!). What a fantastic launch to the New Year!
Enjoy my little side-trip into creativity?
Any particular one that piqued your interest for more?
Any particular one that piqued your interest for more?
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